Welcome to the Holidays

So my favorite thing about any holiday is definitely not people. I really don't care what holiday you choose, it meaning real or implied, or even what time of the year it falls in. Holidays make everyone just a bit phsyco. Only some of get really strange, but all of us are not at our best.

I have a friend who has recently suffered an incredible injustice. Now when hearing about it most people say "Why would someone do that so close to Christmas?" What they should say is "Why would someone do that at all?" Not to be a scrooge or anything but, shouldn't you be expected to treat people with love and respect at all times? Not just because some people are way off on Christs birthday and all that?

What I would like to point out is that we should all conduct ourselves as though everyday is Christmas. No, I don't mean blow every dime you make on ridiculous gifts you can't afford, that no one really needs anyway. I mean, stop to think before you speak or act and consider how someone else might feel. Make every day with your loved ones special, spread love and good spirits (not meaning whiskey, and such) all the time.

The world my friends would be an amazing place if only Christians would be christian to each other! Well that really goes for any faith I suppose. I can't think of a faith in which god would ask you to be an ass to the people around you, but I'm sure there is one out there somewhere.

Don't leave this without understanding that I really am not a fan of many holidays lately. The best thing about them is the fact that there are so many goodies available, and food is everywhere! Currently I'm trying out my own advice and I'll let you know how it goes. Does it count if I try with people I know will never be decent and just? Oh well I guess it will just have to be harder than I thought.

Holidays

Holidays are hard I've decided, but the candy is worth it right? Meh, not this year. Never been a fan of doing the whole family together thing, travelling to visit, or even obligatory phone calls to distant relatives you don't even really know. Bah Humbug right?

Oh well, my simple wish is that one holiday in the future is exactly what I would like. No visits to cranky in-laws, or fighting with cousins. Just my little family somewhere warm sleeping in, opening a few great gifts. Maybe we'd have some Christmas Crepe's when we got hungry or just munch down on fatty junk food and Coke. Not to much right?

My plan, cause I have to have a plan I'm OCD like that, would have to start with just getting someplace warm! I hate the cold, even though the snow is all festive and what not. Personally it makes me want to puke! Its cold, wet, awful to drive in, worse to shovel, and there's something in it that makes people drive like assholes. Maybe its the chemicals in the road salt seeping into their scalps. I don't know and I really don't care either. Just wish they'd stop driving, and breeding! Either way if we were someplace warm then it'd be sunny and happy right.

I hate family parties! Ah hell, it all boils down to... the in-laws hate me. It's ok cause hate isn't really a strong enough word for how I feel about them. What really bothers me is that their intent is to separate my family and love us in pieces. UNACCEPTABLE!!!!! I know they don't like me, I know they don't think Josh is worth the shit they took this morning, Tristin will be last seasons fashion as soon the youngest boy has his new baby. Hell, Tristin was last season when Ashley started bringing her baby girl around! Poor kiddo. They invite Josh and Tristin but not me, no big right.

Wrong again, you can love family in pieces. You either love them and respect the choices they make or you leave them alone right? Not these people, they want to torture you (well Josh). They want to bait you with their love and affection then pull it out from underneath you when it matters most. Sure I love my husband but I will never understand why he allows these creatures to treat him this way. Not only do I worry about him but my baby too. Who is to say that they will not play this game with him as well?

Frustrating. I hate that I even waste my time thinking about them! Either way, do I allow them to divide us so I stay home and Josh and baby go for holiday parties? Or, do I sit through their total lack of respect for me my husband and deal with the dirty looks and snide remarks? Stupid people really shouldn't bread, I wish I could convince them to stop.

Vindicated

So today my favorite song is Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional!

It just really seems to fit lately. Few random thoughts though.... There is this verse that goes:

"So clear

Like the diamond in your ring

Cut to mirror your intentions

Oversized and overwhelmed

The shine of which has caught my eye

And rendered me so isolated, so motivated."

I love my wedding ring it belonged to my great grandmother who I was named after. Of course its not a traditional wedding band, just a regular ring. Proving that I'm a non-comformist (sarcasim). What I really mean is that its unique like me! So, the diamonds are single cuts which the jeweler says they don't do anymore. I don't know, but the point is they're small so does that mean I didn't have many intentions, or a lack of motivation entering this marriage?

And if thats the case, Josh's ring doesn't have any stones in it! Does that mean he no intentions to make this work?!? LMAO. Ok really I just love this verse because I think that all to often its true. What I'm saying is that a lot of girls get married with intentions as to what will change and how they will "mold" thier hubby into thier dream guy.

I've been around, not a lot, but definately enough to know that there is no "dream" guy or girl. Everyone has faults. As someone with many many faults I'm just glad that there are people out there still taking the very bad with the not so good, in trade for a relaxed and fun personality.

I really ought to post all the lyrics I just love this song lately. It's well put together, clearly sung and all around a wonderful listening expierience!

While I'm out pimpin my music tastes: Everyone check out Royal Bliss! You will never be dissapointed. They are awesome on CD and even better in concert! I have never seen a better concert in my life. Royal Bliss always has consistant performances too! Every concert is as good or better than the last. Finally Utah has a local band worth raving about! Ok, ok I'm done, but really check them out. My favorite songs are: "We did nothing wrong." "Save Me" "Pocket of dreams" and "Brave". Well ok I cut the list short I love them all.

Damn it I love music! I could go forever about stuff I love, songs I don't mind all that but I'll spare ya just check out Royal Bliss. Remember though music is not just a string of words that sound pretty. Its about telling a story and connecting to people, so its ok to love music and get all silly emotional when you listen to it. Thats what its there for!!!